I want to be....

when i was a kid i wanted to be a nun
..because i used to see nuns in my schools
i enjoyed my middle school days..then
as i grew i wanted to be a doctor
i used to see the medical college which was in the way of my school
then slowly as and when i "discovered" that passing a PMT is "tough" my dream faded
i was still in 9th only and i enjoyed my higher school

then finally i took science so that i would become an "engineer"(may be a chief engineer like my father)
and would do my bachelors from the same college as my father did
but i could not!!!
i did engineering from xyz college
and i became a engineering with flying colors(????)
i enjoyed my college days
and i dont know what helped me(my luck or hardwaork or yuuu he ho gaya) and recruited by a IT company during my third year...
soon i became "hero" for my relatives(specially who were pursuing engineering)
i joined
i thought am i really a part of this big institution
i got into project
i thought i will never be able to do coding but to my amazment i did
did it pretty well
but i never loved it
for some days i did like it
i still like it
but still i feel i am at wrong place
may be i wanna be a manager
may be a journalist
may be a painter
may be a nice mother
may be a good house wife
may be a social worker
may be all of the above
may be none of the above
i am happy...
i enjoy...
then does that mean that ultimately people like me are happy anywhere they are
and do good or above average where ever they go...BUT...
that directly means that there is no word like "aim"
or "aim" is what we do
i am confused but i am happy
and trying to do better than "good"....